♥ don't let me bid the last goodbye.Heyyo, whats up people.
today had geography and physics test.
i can tell you.
GONE CASE.seriously, i always think that next year i will be having tuition teacher.
so now slack nevermind luh.
but when i'm doing physics, i thought over.
what if i cant manage to pass and i gotta retain!?
because today morning Ms Ng told me,
my amaths gone case already.
she wanted to take out her shoe and throw at me!
haha-.- at first she was saying about emaths.
and i'm like? EMATHS?
am i going to fail my emaths just like that?
i'm like so confident that i will at least pass!
but she's like saying emaths!
i'm wondering, Ms Ng, A maths or E maths?!
she just stared at me-.-
and i just gave a stupid smile and walk away.
you can never believe that.
it's the FIRST time i ever drop a tear for my studies-.-haha, seriously man.
everybody's working so hard.
after exam i will ask people around, how's the paper?
and i'm waiting for them to say "so difficult luh!".
but their replies are "okayokay luh, easy luh".
and i just sign after their replies.
gone case, really gone case.
i don't wanna retain:/
somehow, i've got a feeling that i will retain.
( of course, CHOY LUH! ).after exam, i cant take it anymore.
so i message kecik and qiutong about how i feel.
thanks alot for encouraging.
thanks qiutong for so many things.
but , God don't love me anymore, really.
from day to night, i've been like praying .
during exams also pray.
but , that's what i get.
the
"Best" birthday present from the God?
oh well, some bitches must be giggling while reading this post.
go ahead and laugh out loud.
yes, this time you will do better than me.
but i don't care anymore.
because i know i'm better live off than you.
with great cares and loves from family and relatives.
not like you, pathetic bitch.
whatever it is okay.
i'm really so down and upset okay.
today, i've been crossing the roads without taking a look at cars coming anot.
i just walked, hoping a car would bang me like how
Saikit's accident.
but i wished to be dead in that accident.
oh life oh life.
i don't cherish life, it's my fault.
this is my retribution, for being rude to my family,friends and relatives.
i wanted to be a good girl okay.
went to temple pray grandma just now.
i told her i miss her and so on.
i hope she will help me through the tests.
no replies from her.
and i'm really upset.
the blodshets in my eyes, i just control it.i told grandma i really don't wanna retain.
hoping she will help me alot.
i really gotta buck up.
well, let me summarize abit.
i think i will be failing chinese/amaths/ss/geog/physics.
however, hoping i won't fail my eng/maths/science.
ahhh, i've been thinking about qiutong's message.
well, i really wanna thanks her for the encouragement! :]
Baby, if you're reading my post,i really want to thanks you alot ! ♥alright, i'm going to have dinner with family as a advance birthday treat from daddy.
is it a birthday treat or a celebration for me to fail my exams? :/
seriously, if i gonna retain, i don't feel like studying anymore.
i feel like jumping off the building, kill me please people.
duh luhs. =.="
this is a post full of emotions.
because, girls are emotion
( like what darren says ).i really wanted to study alot.
but whenever the books are in front of me,
my eyes just feel like closing-.-
whatever, just 2 more papers left.
no matter what, i will still do my best for the 2 papers.
like what qiutong suggested.
thanks alot baby! :]
okay bitches, go ahead and laugh at me.
i'm jumping off the building already.
Goodbye.
I just want your concern/care and love.
but you're not there, damnit.
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