I never knew that everything was falling through

Friday, May 30, 2008 9:38 PM

this thing taken away your life)':

my medicine.

♥ GoodBye, My Dear Friend

Hello people.

today was John's last day.

i really didn't attend his funeral.

i didn't accompany walk his last path)':

I'm really sorry.

I did cried at home.

Quarrelled with dad and mom too.

hais.

i seriously miss John Tan Yong Sheng):

Nobody can accept this fact that he's gone.

This is a very big impact to me:/

My friend, Fishy John, went off without a word.

Maybe it's really time for him to go off.

17 years old, this is not the right time for him, God.

Taking him away, is his fate?

well, what is my fate den?

17 years old too?

27 years old?

37 years old?

47 years old?

57 years old?

oh , whatever.

I seriously don't feel good losing a friend.

a good friend like him.

people, treasure every person, thing, day u live

like what qiutong said to me.

treat everyday like it's ur last day of life.

enjoy everyday, with anyone.

AhJohn, trust me.

i really miss the morning days.

semester 2, u will not be in the morning with me already):

maybe u can come and find me?

i promise to go and visit u one day.

i miss you!
Memories will always be kept in my heart♥
Bye and Takecare people!

I should be stronger before my friend collapsed.

Labels: ♥ Goodbye to my dearest friend` John Tan Yong Sheng

3:35 AM

♥ tmr, the last day.

Hello people.

today morning woke up and went in msia

with mom and dad.

ate breakfast.

didn't eat much luh~

hmm, after dat went in giant shopping-.-

urghh, because friday onwards cant go in often le):

hmm, bought quite a few stuffs.

oh yah, forget to mention dat.

we were stucked for probably 1hr before we get to the custom-.-

hmm, after giant..

went to top up oil.

den off to custom already.

saw a guy very kelian,

so donated money to him.

thanks dad for letting me donate money:]

oh well, stucked at the custom for more den 1 hr again-.-

so i started to cam-whore.

hmm, i miss john tan yong sheng):

today is his last day.

he's going off tmr..

and i cant get to see him again....

sorry again)':

oh well, i didn't notice dat i actually cried untill the tears

dropped to my mouth-.-

omg~

whatever, by the time we are out of msia.

it's already going to be 3pm.

so stayed at home and used comp awhile.

around 5.30?

went off to yishun cut hair since dad wants to cut.

i cut too.

oh well, there isn't much differences.

but i don't really like my hair now):

whatever shit it is.

went home, dad and mom cooked.

eat already , watched tv and bathed .

used computerrrrrr! -.-

editted the photos i taken just now.

played games with jie too-.-

i did some thinking after gaming as jie doing hmws.

they aren't my so true friends ya?

because , they only find me when they need help or whatever.

i find dat our distance are far away.

maybe, friends are just names.

family isn't only names.

they are what i needed.

Father And Mother I Love You♥

and of course, kor and jie.♥

oh well, i should be meeting Dearest Madeleine Phua tmr♥

i miss goh qiutong too.

Cheer up baby.

everything's going to be fine.

i can feel the pain.

like you do.

don't worry, i'll be here with u♥

okay, there's nothing much i can say.

but, 安心上路吧朋友♥

Bye and takecare people.

Labels: ♥ who knows if i'm at fault too.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 4:30 PM

♥ Everybody wants you back!

hello people.

today woke up at 6.19am .

the moment i woke up,

i think of john again):

i couldn't control my eyes.

den cry till half, fall aslp-.-

woke up le, it's already 10+/11+.

used computer and so on oh.

not much people online.

chatted with mommy.

i really wanted to go to john's funeral on friday! ):

it's the last day already!

if i don't go, i will never see him again)':

never ever again)':

hais, i browse through 1 person's blog.

it says, to stop thinking so much, find things to do.

i don't know what to do,

so i downloaded maple-.-

i trained from 4% to 11% killing monsters dat i have to kill 3 to gain 0.01%.

i used probably 2 - 3 hrs doing it.

well, whatever.

i miss my dear friend so much):

well, maybe he is the first friend dat ever leave me.

and i'm really feeling so damn sad.

i cant believe dat god had take away a 17 year old teen.

hais):

everybody wants him back badly:/

i really hate facing the facts! )':

bye people!

来世还是朋友♥

Labels: ♥ Rest In Peace

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 8:38 PM

♥ i miss you, seriously.

Hello people.
today woke up early and used comp.
met qiutong baby around 12.45 at cheers.
went up to viva chatted.
and went to 888 plaza collect stuffs.
and went back viva eat yong tao fu.
chatted so many.
thanks baby for cheering me up,
glad dat u know it's hard for me to cheer up.
but what u say helped me alot.
thanks for being with me when my tears dropped although i felt embarrass-.-
oh well, probably 4pm+.
kelly girlfriend came to look for us.
den we went to hard court.
it was drizzling.
junming came to pass us the ball.
okay, nobody came AT ALL-.-
nevermind, went home after that.
Happy Birthday to belinda poh and mira nadzirah and kamalia.
Birthday Song:
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to ber,mira,kamalia
Happy Birthday to you!
Bye people.

when i saw ur face at straits time newspaper.
my heart sank):
i really miss you alot.
I've been askin myself.
"Is this a dream?" ; hoping the answer would be yes.
but, the answer will always be no):
wherever i am, whoever i talk to, i saw your faces.
all over in my mind.
i cant forget the morning days.
17 year old teen ; rebellious yet such a nice boy.
everytime seeing you so active,
now, lying down in the coffin.
not moving, at all.
and i cant even go and see u in the coffin.
i'm so sorry, very very sorry..
Trust me,
losing a good friend like you is so hurtful.
my heart ached, my tears poured.
hais, god is taking away his life.
and he will be gone now and forever, really gone.
no more fisherman):
John Tan Yong Sheng,
listen up!
you will always be remembered, in our hearts.
Once again, Rest In Peace.
Our Precious Fishy John♥♥

Labels: ♥ forever gone):

Monday, May 26, 2008 11:45 PM

♥ Rest In Peace

Hello people.
today was really very terrible.
first thing in the morning i woke up,
i received a msg from saikit best friend.
yes, he passed away already.
obviously, tears dropped straight away.
whatever it is.
around 1pm, went to cwp find cousins and aunt.
walked around shopping.
trust me, my mood is totally down.
i couldn't laugh or smile.
because i really cant take it anymore,
times pass.
and i managed to control my feeling.
went home around 4+,
went out of house at 5.45~
went to cwp find sister and eat dinner together.
had yoshinoya.
den, went to popular to get some stuffs.
aunts went home.
so left me, dad and sis.
went to camera shop to print photos.
dad made me laugh.
we saw a pink camera ; cost $599
den i told dad " daddy, very nice hor? buy for me! :p"
den he say " WAH, u see this so small $599, see this one, SO BIG AR! HAHA. $79 niah!"
okay, i was laughing.
i'm really laughing.
after everything, went home.
change clothes and went to hard court find friends.
i'm sorry, i'm totally down as i finally can let off my tears.
honestly, throughout the whole day,
i have been keeping back my tears.
acting to be fine when i'm not.
trying my best to be happy.
so, on the way walking to hard court.
tears drop, of course.
den at hard court, it was pouring heavily.
sorry people):
and definetely,
thanks kelly girlfriend and brendon ong for cheering me up
although it's not working at all.
oh well, accompany them for dinner and went home.
my face is really very hot right now.
eyes are swollen and burning.
it hurts me so much):
thanks qiutong baby for cheering me up too♥
people, please cherish your loved ones.
don't wait until bad things happen okay?
nobody knows what happen next.
i really hope u guys also can cherish your own life.
don't say that you are tired of living and what so ever.
there are alot people whom wanna live but they cant.
don't disappoint them, please.
okay, i'm going off to help sister with some stuffs.
bye and takecare people.

rest in peace my dear friend,
i will not be able to attend ur funeral.
i'm very sorry.
i really wanted to go and see u for the last time,
but my sister don't allow.
please don't blame her,
because i know it's for my own good.
i hope you understand.
moreover, i'm not very close with you.
but , i'm very sorry.
I really miss the morning days chat with u):
I will see you in the next life.
takecare when your in another world.
i miss you.
i will remember you, my dear friend♥

Labels: ♥ the fisherman will be gone now and forever.

10:43 AM

why are there so many people leaving this world?
god, i believe u can help ahjohn.
please don't let him leave this world.
give him a chance to turn over a new leaf!
i really don't wanna lose a good friend, good joker like him!
i still remember last time morning.
at vista point always saw him.chat with him, joke with him.
uh, we don't know each other for very long.
you guys may think that i'm so~~~
but, he's my friend.
although it's just a normal friend.
but, i don't want people around me to leave me.
God bless ahjohn, please.
I beg you!
The tears I let down,
can never be more den the Sichuan's earthquake de survivors.
I can finally feel the pain of the Sichuan's people.
It really so sucks, so pain)':

Editted :
you went away already)':
i cant believe it.
Ahjohn, why are you so stubborn?
why cant you just take a piece of advice from people?
god, he is so young, and u take away his life?
don't you think u are so cruel?
why cant you let him take a look at the world one more time?
i really don't understand!
oh whatever, i cant just the fact; the BAD fact.
26may2008, 6.10am ; i will remember you, always ♥

Saturday, May 24, 2008 4:50 PM

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12:01 AM

♥ Last day of school

Hello guys:]
today is the last day of school.
i didn't know whether to be sad or happy?
i miss my teachers.
and Mr Too of cause! ;D
ahha, he told us he should be leaving already):
ewwwwwwwwws!
alright, i should say he's really not a bad teacher luh:]
just that like to "suan" people niah.
ahah! ;X
hmm, probably 2-3 months?
nahhs, i not gonna forget him^^
thanks for lending me your textbook, Mr Too ! :D
oh well, today we had 2 periods of assembly in the morning talking craps.
we get alot of homeworks-.-
hmm, slacked around in classroom.
last 2 period, we cleaned up classrooms/tables.
like shit can?
i've been walking to the toilet and classroom for more den 5 times! -.-
hah!
den kaixiong ask me "why u keep walking here and there?"
HAHA! ;x
omg, alamak lahs.
last period, got back our report books.
i really envy Khairunnisa~
she's great lahhhh! );
hahas. hmm,
school ended.
hais, i miss my teachers/classmates/friendssss!
Arghhh! ):
hmm, after school while walking to the backgate,
1 idiot[ LEONARD!! ] hit my head.
DAMN hard!
grrrrrrrrrs, dat baddy!
last day of school den lidat!
ALAMAK!
haha! :x
after school went off to viva for air-con:D
chatted, of course:]
around 2pm+,
went home lers:]
used comp, i've changed my blog url people:]
do relink me alrights?
xiexie ni men! ♥
okay, my results?
hao hao hao, i will post:]
okay, i shall post the combination marks;D

English --> 50.4 [ C5 ]
Chinese --> 58.8 [ C5 ]
Amaths --> 59.1 [ C5 ]
Emaths --> 80.0 [ A1 ]
Science --> 63.5 [ B4 ]
Combined Humanities --> 50.3 [ C5 ]
Total : 362.1/600
Percentage : 60.4
Class position : 15/44
Level position : 16/88

Please don't laugh at me for the bad results ):
i admit i didn't study much, although:x
haha, i will work hard for the next upcoming exams! :D
okay! :]]]]]]]
i should have stop here.
bye and takecares:]

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Labels: ♥ i gonna miss you guys` 3n1 + teachers`

Thursday, May 22, 2008 4:28 PM