Tuesday, January 05, 2010 11:48 PM
♥ It wasn't a good day.
Hi guys,
today probably gonna be a very emo post.
12 students from 5n1 were being transferred to 5n2 and vice-versa.
i'm freaking sad! Raudha,Syahidah,Nashiir,Shahrul,Hafeez and co all being transferred to 5n2!
omg, i miss them so much :(
and my hair was being caught today again, fucker.
eeling lied to mdm azar her hair natural coloured.
and she fucking hell believed it, WHAT THE FUCK?
freaking pissed off okay.
and it's like, i'm getting more and more emotional after school reopens.
i'm not trying to act pityful, pathetic or lonely.
but i'm pretty shocked that i've changed till like that.
it may sounds so fake, but i cried 11 times today. ( somebody said "wah, still can count ah?" )
2 hours non-stop.
i've no idea why am i crying.
Probably because of my hair's problem, school's stressed ( just by looking at the schedule)
and friends are leaving me :(
I started to miss all of them, even those i hated in express classes.
because in school, only left 2 classes of my batch.
and i'm like missing each and everyone i hated/loved.
i miss Henry, Yu An, Saikit and co during recess time.
aiyo, it's like so damn weird not to see them messing around in the canteen,
pulling my hair, people calling me "Shorty", laughing at me when i trip and so on.
I felt so stupid, ( don't laugh at me or think i'm silly, but it's freaking hell 100% authentic ).
i feel like crying when i see Chr students walk past me, cause i think of my group of friends.
i never felt this way before, sounds stupid right?
haha, no idea why lah.
although knowing they won't forget me, but i just cant help it.
i never felt so lonely before.
although my Na-ers are still with me, but i really don't know why.
what's wrong with me.
why am i letting my tears down so easily?
not trying to act one pathetic, but i prayed for my heartbeat to stop before i fall asleep in the night.
i don't know how to carry on with my life.
i don't know how am i going to study for my O level.
i don't know how long can i hang on.
i don't know what should i do.
i don't need your sympathy, i just need your care.
and that's all.well, probably no one understands it, i knew it.
nothing can describe how i'm feeling right now.
so complicated, weird and pain.
goodbye.
Everything has an expiry date, including memories.
